Wow where to start right. Things have been so busy today is the first day in a long time I have been able to sit down and hash out our thoughts enough to where maybe I don't look like some whiney little choad. So here we go.

Between the new job of shooting cards across the felt and diskgolf and paintball games and swimming and ... well you guys get the picture. Things have been hectic but I am surviving. I do have some new material but I decided to spend my time at the library giving this silly update that maybe two or three people might read but it gives me a much needed outlet for my stress. Since I moved away from hippy-ville and my friends there I really haven't had anyone to talk to about my issues and well I think it is starting to show.

School is really hounding me now. They say they are going to start garnishing my wages. Good luck I say, I get paid under the table. Well, technically I am an independant contractor. But this is really gonna screw all my chances of getting back in, at any quick rate anyway.

My love life still sucks. I just wish women wouldn't hear "I need to get to know you better then we can have a relationship" instead of what I really say which is " I would like you to know right now. That I am not looking for any kind of relationship right now."We will just leave it at that.

But I love my job and when I am there most everything else can just take a backseat. Latly something has really been weighing heavily over me and I can't shake it. I couldn't shake before and I can't shake it now. I can't even talk about it. It is stupid I know. I just don't know what to do or where to turn. So I guess I just do nothing and hope it doesn't develope into something that feels like a tumor.